Had a beautiful day outside today! Letting myself relax and do the much needed “healing” I need to. This is primarily mentally with everything that has happened this past year. I have let my family hurt me for so long that I have never truly coped with everything I have gone through in my six year marriage.
My divorce trial is Monday and I am so happy this is all almost finished after such a long period of waiting due to the court system being slow. I am just grateful I won’t ever have to revisit that part of my life soon. I can’t wait to truly move on and get past everything, but I am not blind to the fact that I DO need to really just take a few days to think about my life and let it all go. This will probably be accompanied by some tears and looking through photos of my family as well. Wine would be wonderful, but I do not like to drink alone. Sometimes I wish I knew more people in this area. My boyfriend doesn’t mind being there for me, but he is one of the few people I know in Columbus. I feel bad burdening him with my stresses too often. I just need one of those girly afternoons with wine, sappy movies and company.
But regardless of all that, I had a pretty bad week in terms of working out. Ate fine, just didn’t workout more than maybe three days. I wish I had done more, but I was just not all there mentally for it. Thankfully I picked things back up today and I will continue from now on and stop letting my past get me down. It is the past for a reason, it is done, it is over. I am starting a small secondary blog to write about abuse, abandonment and the process of moving on to help me keep focused, happy and hopefully let my experiences help others while keeping them from dwelling in my mind. If you would like the link, please send me an ask (no anons please). It will be anonymous mainly so that people who I do not wish to find it, won’t. No photos of me either, just beautiful things around me in nature.
This week I should be blogging a lot more and talking about workouts. I have a few blogs planned to hopefully help those of you who are struggling and I think, now that I am almost solid with this new diet, I may finally put up the intake page with tips and recipes!
Hope all if well in your lives. Thank you so much for all the beautiful comments of love and encouragement to my last post. These things mean the world to me. Thank you for being such an amazing, kind community. <3